These questions are not wrong to ask. But it is wrong to have your heart captivated by them.
The problem with worry is that it forgets God. It is God-forgetful. God becomes small, weak, and nonexistent. But is that true? Is that what the Bible says? Is God truly omniscient? Is He Immanuel?
1. Why is this happening to me? I have no idea, but God does. And that realization should quiet all your fears. This is not about you vs. suffering. You are not alone! He has not abandoned you (Rom. 8)!
2. Could I have prevented it? Maybe or maybe not. But that’s not the point. God could have and He chose not to. His grace is sufficient (2 Cor. 12:9).
3. What will the outcome be? I am not sure, but God does. Don’t focus on tomorrow, because today is full already (Matt. 6).
4. Do I have what it takes to make it through? Of course not, but God wants to carry you. He is your perfect burden bearer. Don’t put it on your shoulders, but His. Run into His loving arms and find rest for your soul.
Matthew 11:28-30 (HCSB)
28 “Come to Me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
29 All of you, take up My yoke and learn from Me, because I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for yourselves.
30 For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”
Hebrews 4:16 (HCSB)
16 Therefore let us approach the throne of grace with boldness, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us at the proper time.